~You're appearing even in my dreams.~

♥ Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Today is my sec registration duty.Was suppose to meet my friend for breakfast but sorry buddy i overslep=) But it was also my grandfather's leg surgery and i was very worried..But still have to go attend my duty in school..and two of my friends came to join me but they just sat there and wait for me until 4pm which my duty ends around that time. Today's duty was not too taxing as it was just sitting there asking for identification number lol?But in the end become door guard at the hall lol? After "knocking off" went with my poorthing two friends to eat ice cream over at Mac and had an agruement with some people okay sorry to offend ok?After that i took mrt with my fwen back to bedok and went home and mummy said wanna go hospital visit ah gong so i agreed and folo them to the hospital to visit ah gong. The hospital was on the side of paragon and it was very quiet.Doc said that ah gong's recovery was quite good but the worse part was ah gong vomited and that was pretty worrying..My friend called me and i picked and just because of that my father said i was not sincere of visiting grandfather and that really pissed me off..we finished little nyonya at the hospital before going home and reached home about 11pm..sorry meimei to leave you at home alone when we went visit ah gong cuz u went in the afternoon le mah... but still sorry...Haiz still worried about grandfather~

Labels: ~Ah gong's surgery~

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

♥ Friday, December 26, 2008

Today was quite a lame chirstmas as...many many things happened and it was rather...haixx dun wanna mention already since those matters are bad memories~To me its kindaf retribution as i really wonder what good things have i even done to deserve all the good stuff that people do for me~

I finally realised..in order deserve to be pamered alot of things from now onwards alot of effort needed to be put in, strong will power is required and...sacrifices are required and i self - promise that no matter what i will bear all the pain and everything that is needed.no matter how miserable i feel i have no choice....its time i face the cruel reality.feel rather retard today, should have gone to join mum and sis but cuz of many factors, i decided to spend my chrismas alone and seems that i've made a right choice.hard to discribe but i dont know why..walking among the large crowd but my heart feels so empty~~But to sum up the day, i went tiong baru plaza especially to watch a movie which is called bed time story which i wished i called my frens along as i watched the movie i felt as empty deep in my heart.

I smuggled an ice lemon tea from 7-11 into the cinema.After that, i alighted the MRT at outram park planning to go harbour front but due to some factors, decided to dash all the way back to the mrt and took a train to suntect for nothing and took bus 36 from there and alight at st.partick there and in hgh heels, i walked all the way back to my house void deck and sat there for a while.While i was sitting there, i realised many things again. i felt so miserable when keeping something from someone but i would rather suffer alone! But i realised also that i should just tell the person and not keep anything anymore.The concern that i show for people is really far to less... i would really wanna show but seriously i really don't know how...

i feel really terrible..what should i do? Keeping things from them is not what am i gonna do...Its time for a whole make over....I nid to plan my future again...To be frank i hate people gimme things out of pity especially love relatonships or stuff... if its out of pity i would rather not have one...I'm a rather unreasonable person and i finally realised it today.People once told me that i was not like this when i was in Primary school....

i hope that i could really reverse back to who am i in primary school but its so difficult but i'm still gonna try~I wanna be respected and of course... _ _ _ ed....but its so hard~ really i find it...i decided... i'm gonna be less emotional, take easy for everything, not gonna expect, not gonna wish, not gonna hide, not gonna be selfish, unreasonable...Gonna treat you both better, ____ the both of you dearly, give up my everything to protect.I feel no better lying to ___ everytime and hide my true feelings~i really dont know how to treat ____ better noe..

full of regrets, miserys and..etc... Feel terrible today cuz of many things but especially hearing you all so heartache cuz i kept a trival matter of my feelings from you all....but have u all ever thought that hearing u all react this way i would feel even worse that i would rather be the one taking the pain rather than u all? i noe i shld not hav kept these from you all but i didn't noe it wld matter so much to you all and...its actually a small matter to me...feel so bad really...

think that this christmas would be one of the worst christmas we ever had... feel better after you all yelled at me cuz i feel really bad at that point of time where you all just talked to mee like normal... i took you all for granted for long and yet you all did not scold me... i feel that its so hard to pull close the distance thats between us and..its so hard to pull it near..and i feel so exhusted but yet sad~At the same time... i felt abit betrayed~but you are forgiven as i dun blame you...Okays people, signing off from here!

But still.... wish all of you a...

~MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!~

Labels: ~Worst Christmas~

Friday, December 26, 2008

♥ Thursday, December 25, 2008

As mentioned in yesterday's post, woke up at 7 yeah.Mum woke up early but ended up being late over as car suddenly sot and cannot start e engine dunno why and mum panicked..But still we went to suntect by 36 and reached there on time but theres hardly a soul there=.=Yes as mentioned in previous post watching Boltz today

~The person with a son infront of him its HAM, Head of the department not a piece of ham that can be eaten=) See e woman whose so cute in red on the right hand side of ham? Yah shes my mummy very cute hor=X the one beside her should be Auntie Angelina who gave me earings for my bd thanks Auntie Angelina~ Thou Auntie Angelina may look a little plump in the photo but shes not as pretty as my nya as prettiesttt of all is my nyanya whose has a heart of gold<33333333>

~ little BOLT~

Had a little breakfast before going in for movie...Bolt was i nice movie and again yes i cried as i was to touched when bolt saves his old master and left her once again as he thought that she did not miss him and all was an act which its not and she cried so much over him~Luckily it was a happy ending=DAfter movies, we took MRT straight back to Tampinese to check wads wrong with the car.Sorry mummy cant do much to help you when u were so helpless~Mum called little uncle to come first and both of them had no solution to the problem therefore we called the car repair shop and the crew came and inspect the car but it could not even jump-start therefore had to be towed back to the workshop haha. It was so funny~Mummy and me was in the car while the car was being towed back to the workshop thou it was illegal haha but the feeling is shiok and mummy's expression keep making me laugh till stomach ache hahaha!!!

~Crew holding a fat wire trying to jump-start daddy's car~

After reaching the workshop, we stood there for quite long and the worst part is gotta stand in the rain but not bad lah its i choose not to stand in e shelter thou=X the crew claimed that the battery had problem and needed to be changed and the workshop had a shortage of batteries and needed to take from other places and it would take a while and told us to have something at the Coffee shop behind and we went as we 3 were starvin since 10am=.=Xiao Jiu still show off his red bean bread walau evil:@Shld have tickled or boxed you for being so evil:@

~wah are they trying to do any monkey business?~

~wah wah wah eh buddy u trying to dismantle our car har?~

~Eh evil de xiao jiu look over mah since so handsome today=X~

~O.o yeah tis is e kopitiam with nothing but drinks, snacks and Mixed rice wah kao! food so not up to standred but at least edible hor?~

Haha after eating the crew kindly came over and invited us over as the car could move again=) After that....~home sweet home~ still Ah mah cooks 1000000x better than the Kopitiam wor never gonna go back this kopitiam behind the workshop near eunos haha signing off from here pple cya~

Labels: ~First illegal experience sitting in a towed-car~

Thursday, December 25, 2008

♥ Wednesday, December 24, 2008

It was rather a taxing day fer me today as i woke up around 6am today and went with my friend fer an early bird breakfast before heading back to school at 9pm for training.Today's training was quite a pleasent training as i was not scolded and managed to do my drills quite okay and brother was there to be our audience today.We had 10peple 3 girls 7 guys. lol.Have to admit that missing trainings is no good as i would really lag behind!But its not wat i wanted as i was needed for duties,Japan and stuff~Omg...really miss trainings like today! it really rox.After training today, brother and me went 11-7 for a cup of noodles before we went over to justin's back staircase to wait for him to get ready. He and brother went over to Zone X and play arcade while i went home and get bathed and changed. But i find myself really silly dressing up so nicely whereby only for barely an hour! omg! But nevermind its worth it as it should be the case that a lady shld look nice no matter what shes doing=) anyway Justin and brother met some1 who resort to violence and he was very angry with that person for doing that thou~Relac kay? At 7pm close to 8, i arrived back home and had a tiff with sis but afterall we made up=P today its a very very happy day as Auntie Joeanne bought me and sis each a good quality towel for chrismas present!! Thanks Auntie Joe<3333^^ i also recieved the chrismas card that Mayu my Japan buddy sent me!!!^^ It was really really really lovely with sounds even but i guess it must have cost a bomb=( Mayu and Okasan I wanna take this chance to thank you for what you and you family have done for me and take care of me when i was in Japan and Mayu i promise i will never forget you as you're the sweetest buddy i had!!Aishiteru<33333 i love you 4=) But its so sad to hear that 8am on the 29th theres a briefing regarding my sc stuff omg-.-So excited as mummy is bringing us for a movie treat her office off day tomorrow and its sponsered by her company haha but the worse part is we are suppose to wake up by 7am tmr and i had no more than 5 hrs of sleep yesterday due to cannot sleep and some things weavering in my mind too~my god i'm so exhusted-.-) Watching Boltz i think=P okay pple shall sign off from here as its gonna strike 12=P ah mah nagging le~Buhbyez~

Labels: ~An extra audience for Training~

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

♥ Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Today was suppose to be a special day whereby i'm suppose to spend happily with friends but unfortunately it was ruin...dun feel like telling the reason as i noe if i tell e reason would probably breakdown and wont stop for a long period of time~Anyway just to round up today, went to Novena Square with my fren and we had lunch after that we went to woodlands both by train and we parted goodbye at causeway point.i bought some marshmellows for Jianxin,brother's sister cos i made her cry by accident=( sorry wor Jianxin=(Today i learnt many many lessons but feel like keeping them to myself but seriously on the bus on e way home, i kept listening to Canon D to calm myself down as i nearly broke down as it was really a hard blow for me to take my friend, u may not noe but it was one of the worse blows that i had ever taken and its even worse than the brokeup that i had with my ex or even my results.Friend next time if you really dun wan to do it or really scared to do it then might as well dun do itT_T~why must today end up this way when its suppose to be a happy that we celebrate this significant day? Anw friend, u're forgiven=) nid not bother abt what i mention abv as its my own point of view.....

Labels: ~ The reverse~

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

♥ Monday, December 22, 2008

This year it was special as some relatives came over and visit us from Malaysia and it was 冬至 therefore, ah mah cooked many nice dishes~Big uncle and auntie also got come back today hahas. We had rice dumplings today.

~汤圆～

~Big fat fish~

~Fat Fat chicken~

~Does this sweet sweet grape juice look like wine?~

This was a sweet juice was what big uncle brought back for us and it was a little gasy haha Due to the distant guess coming i was very stressed and i helped out grandmother with the house chores and packing the house. I'm a baby sitter as well as when the guests came i babysitted the little baby Gaku and helped to wrap the prawn dumpling for the guest to eat.But mummy seems to understand that we were having a tiring time at home,she bought some KFC back for me and meimei YAY^^The guest went back at 8 plus..so late.. lol

~Chef Koh Wrapping dumpling~

~Lemonade upsized~

~2pc of yummy chicken, fries and cheez fries~

2 drumsticks and a marsh potato~

~Favourite origional Yougurt!~

Okay people,shall sign off from here cos these are all basically what i did today=)

Labels: ~Malaysia Guest~

Monday, December 22, 2008

♥ Sunday, December 21, 2008

Today woke up at 12 cuz ytd slept at 4am lol jialat haha but once i woke up dis morning oni brushing my teeth half way he ask me to help bring old sofa out lol cuz new 1 cuming..haha=) we had many jokes along the way haha i'm sambat po=X

~My old sofa~i'll miss you~

~The sofas at the lift~

~The hall seems so empty without you sofa~
Meimei and me went to the badminton open court to play badminton after lunch.theres a couple there kissing eachother lol....meimei said it was gross LOL... We had a short session this time only around 1 hour due to the strong wind.Around 10 minutes pass 6, the new sofa came and its something like a massage chair lol

~New sofa~

though the new sofa was cool but i would still prefer my old sofa~

Labels: ~Bye old sofa and hie new relax chair=)

Sunday, December 21, 2008

♥ Saturday, December 20, 2008

Today was pretty much a tired,stressful and yet fruitful day today=) Today's duty was from 9Am to only 11am.Managed to help quite a number of parents.Saw many juniors especially from Ngee Ann Primary.I would predict that this batch of sec 1s would be worse than what we currently have as sec 1s..i hope not..Duty was quite boring...But it was quite fruitful day as i learnt that i actually am someone who gets things done too but i should spread e job xD President adviced us many things today and i know that my life as a councillor is only going to get worse and heavier but no easier and slacker=.="Okay after duty, went to mac to meet brother and we had lunch together. After that returned to sch to gib Gareth back his councillor badge. Heys thanks for lending leh=X Changed into home clothes before going with brother to Justin's house.From Justin's house, we went to sch bus stop inicially but unexpectedly nearly got brother into trouble.Luckily Justin was in time and ran together with brother. Glad that we managed to escape. Met Nco KaLun on the way to take bus to white sands. LoL just knew tat he moved house and he knew today we got training wor=PAfter we reached white sands,brother and me had a water melon juice as our stomach was stirring whirlpool...it was so miserable..Next, we went to white Sands Arcade..

~Cool man! Chiong arh brothers!!~

~Alamak brother i'm injured!! cover me while i reload!!~

~Eh brother! Bang e car in front, me wan get first!!=P

~Jialat gonna kena accident!! Help me brother!!~
After they finish playing, we all went home.On my way home, sister smsed me that mum wanted me to return home fast as shes bringing us out.We went to Orchard Hotel first to collect MaMa's hair medicine and when we went back to the car, NyaNya say she lost her whole album of credit cards~~But in e end was Nya dropped at e side..Nya Nya next time check carefully leh=Xhaha Nya go ask Pa if he got lock his car properly anot lol in the end they argued again..Haiz=.= Next we went suntect..First we had a nice dinner at...

~Sizzler very crowded~

~Clam Chowder soup and Salad?~

Our next destination was Carefour...

~Amount of things we bought INSIDE only~

~Chrismas Deco at Suntect~

~Total amount of things we bought~total 6 bags~

Labels: ~Cool Brother and shuai VIP~

Saturday, December 20, 2008

♥ Friday, December 19, 2008

Did not have a good night last dont know because what..Woke up 8.50am this morning as i could not really sleep well in my bed might as well just wake up ealier..After a while i on com and played for a whle and unfortunately PAPA was on leave..freak..he came back and spoiled all my fun.After that,i shut down my comp and went down to ngee ann primary bustop and meet Cheryl,after that i took bus 196 together wiv Cheryl down to Marine Parade Library and met Jixin there.We then took bus 196 down to Bedok and at the interchange, we each bought a bubble tea but i bought an extra fries to share with them.After my last bestie arrived,we together took mrt to Plaza Singapura.For the sake of charity,we each forked out $2.50 but i took the item at last.=P We window-shopped the whole Plaza Sing but never bought anything=P i had 2 banana fritters and Jixin helped me finished the last one..thank you=) Cuz it was too bored there, we decided to go white sands since my two besties nvr rly xplore there=X but b4 leaving for white sands, cheryl and me decided to have a chawanmushi at Youshinoya which i think i pronouse it rongly=X so paisei=X sorry bestie make you wait for us for so long n accompanied us walk everywhere no matter how tired were you...sorry..>.< the chawanmushi was delicious=).We finished the chawanmushi first before setting off to white sands.Due to time constrain,we only managed to have a dinner at white sands and took a bus home with one of my besties.When i got home,uncle passed me an envelope which contains a card that Auntie Nancy wrote for me for chirsmas.I was really overjoyed to recieve her card as i relied alot on her in Japan and respect her alot.It was double blessing as was glad to go out with my besties and get a card from Auntie Nancy.

Labels: ~Double Blessings~

Friday, December 19, 2008

♥ Thursday, December 18, 2008

Nothing too special today..Actually kathleen booked my time slot today to go with her today to KK hospital for appointment with her but she called me yesterday that she had something else today and decided that i need not go with her to kk for appointment and therefore i pmed cheryl on msn and we went for badminton today. We had a short badminton session but her skills are not bad=) We both went to 7 11 after that to quench our thirst.I bought a combo and a marsh potato.. unfortunately the drink is not ice lemon tea as finishT_T i shared the drink with cheryl and after that it just ended.Other than that nothing else much today~ Lame day~But yet i feel so pain and exhusted~looking forward to go out with jixin cheryl and another friend tomorrow=D

Labels: ~Boring day~

Thursday, December 18, 2008

♥ Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Heys pple=) Happy today was a happy but yet tiring day for me.Spent the whole morning edit my blog skin but after all the effort put in, it was still only half done.. meimei ask me to prepare early and in the end we were ealier by 1 hr but its okay:D at least mei and me manage to get 2 shuttlecocks as she shot her only one into a fan when she played with her friends yesterday at the enclosed area..very pro hor? haha..i never played badminton for 4 years and meimei kindly practiced with me badminton=) thank you meimei^^she really taught me very patiently, no matter how many times i failed to surf she never grumbled.. <333 that="D">After about 1 hrs of preparation, we went back to the BBT shop to meet the rest of meimei's friends, Joanna, Eileen and May.We headed to the open court and started playing badminton.I hit off quite well with Joanna=) I did not really play much during singles but during doubles, i paired with meimei and Joanna paired with May. I managed to impress meimei due to my shots she said that she was impressed and Joanna said that my skills are legendary! haha i felt so honored as it was the first time my junior ever praised that my skills are good whereby i never played for 4 years. We wrapped up the session at 5.30 and meimei and me went to the BBT shop and due to my fabulous performance, meimei treated me sausage and a green tea and i treated her to a green tea in return when we were at house downstairs. I realised that i could not even hold a can of yeos green tea..as i was having muscle ache..Had a good bath and did my blog stuff again. managed to finish everything by 2am and was talking to jusin and brother on the phone. Justin hung up at 3am and i continued talking secretly to brother all the way till 4am till my phone battery ran flat.Was dead hungry so went to kitchen and had a little supper before going into my dreamland~ Buhbye~nites pple^^

Labels: ~addicted to badminton~

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

♥ Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Its quite an adventerous day today as about 2.45 i went out to take bus but i realised i never take my wallet therefore headed home to get it but i was pretty "lucky" as i met my junior irfan from oscar squad and he was quite friendly and said hi to me haha.After i collected my wallet from my maid downstairs,i went to the bus-stop outside St. Patrick.Took 31 from there to Bedok interchange mrt mouth and bedok mrt mouth i went into bedok mrt and took mrt from bedok all the way to Queenstown mrt...Felt so stressed and was very bad tempered..I realised that my attitude towards people close and whose actually dear and precious to me really suck..its time for self reflection...i really broked down when i was on my way to parkway because i knew that my fwen is at there and i really wanted to see my fwen because i really felt so bad and guilty..Precious people.. i nearly lost you all due to my attitude towards you guys..thanks those who stood by me and help me change my attitude=) from today onwards i will change my attitude towards how i treat you all i really will..i managed to see my friend at parkway thou i'm beside my fwen but my fwen never see me lol...but not counted as a wasted trip as i saw my friend..After that i went to BBT shop and meet meimei and we walked home together ^^

Labels: ~Nearly lost my everything..~

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

♥ Monday, December 15, 2008

Today is another lame day...Woke up 11plus and had cereal coco crunch for breakfast=P After breakfast, I saw my uncle watching 钱不够用2 therefore i watched together with him and sister=) But seriously i cried like a running water tap T_T I watch this show make me feel that i should'nt have kids in future especially sons and i need to earn alot alot of money so i can enjoy my days when i grow old in future.. The scene where shows the mother plucked out her oxygen supply just to save her granddaughter Stella, i was very touched..And i aim to be like the 赖怡玲, because the way she treat her husband its really very well... and due to her love for her husband and she wanted to help him therefore she even can take blames for him and use her office's money just to help him...shes really noble...seeing these scenes make me so emo lol....T_T Ah mah today went out to pray and mummy went with her..After that they came home for a short while and mum + dad took their dinner and they took meimei out to kallang leisure park for movies - the city of amber..And me~~alone at home..A guy called Jiaming added me on tagged and he said i looked like his ex girlfriend and wanted to view web cam with me cos he added me on msn and i felt so scared and helpless at that point of time as i really dont wan to view with him...lucky bestie u were here with me<333~~

Labels: ~All alone in the night~

Monday, December 15, 2008

♥ Sunday, December 14, 2008

Today its quite a lame day and nothing much actually happened.Spent the whole day doing up this new skin that you are viewing on my blog now..cos am quite new to it and need time to learn my basics well...nothing special today except that ah ma helped me cut my hair in the afternoon~.~

~Guess whos e person sitting down like a ghost?~

~After i cut my hair..~

~Amount of hair being cut....Yuck!T_T~

Mummy and daddy came bak around 7 plus cos they went help ah gong ah mah buy leg stuff~~ When mum heard hot dogs finish le she wanted drive us to parkway to buy but daddy say there will be chaotic and so refuse to pass her the key..idiotic..and therefore we sneaked out and took 196.. 196 took 15 mins to come... long wait...

~Parkway parade~

~went into giant..~

~And bought....

THESE....much more than wat we suppose to buy..LOL~

After doing these shoppings..we went to mac opposite,cracked many jokes on the way there and had...

~Junkies and ice cream=P~

After this, papa finally realised that we MIAed and rung me up and picked us up at the bus-stop and..Home Sweet Home~arrived home abt 11plus~Schedule next week almost fully booked..haiz..would be so busy..Nxt wed 17th dec go with Kat to kk hospital for appointment..18th dec nxt thursday suppose to meet cheryl for gathering and bringing YOU<333 bubbye="">~Short post~

Labels: Night family outing

Sunday, December 14, 2008