~You're appearing even in my dreams.~

♥ Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Today i had SLI rehersal..Was released late from assembly..Was super unlucky sitting beside a jerk during a part of the rehersal..Pathetic..Got Geog test tomorrow but forgot my book.Lucky Auntie help me open the door and i got my book:)Waited for small small go home..Discuessed with small small tmr shall go rip market with him for ingredients for his practical dish tmr.. Was super upset with dad..Cos i just used small uncle comp online msn a while only kena scold like as if what..Just cos i got no displine wtf?Yeah but his scolding became a motivation to my studies decided to study till late night..Cannot tahan then yeah.. Bye~!

Labels: Unreasonable dad..

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

♥ Monday, April 20, 2009

One day after NPAP i'm starting to miss it..Today i basically rot at home because i'm simply farr too tired to go anywhere..early morning recieved an sms from yi jia asking me email:D Smsed zaidee and he was fine;D The rest of the time i'm gonna facebook:D bye~

Labels: Rot at home=)

Monday, April 20, 2009

♥ Sunday, April 19, 2009

Its finally NPAP actual today..The day tat i seriously don't wish for..to think that i used to wish for this day..But after knowing everyone like Shimin and Zaidee i really dont wanna have npap..I just wanna have usual trainings together with them.However good stuff have to come to an end sadly..

Okay the day kicked off with meeting weiqi at market bus stop and alvin choo by accident on the train to simei when i was meeting Xun fang for lunch..Went to buy 2 pc chicken set take away..Saw some east spring people together with the jerk..Then junwen was there too..Haha Faris wanted salt water to drink so he wun dehydrate durng npap but his father tot he nid that to polish boots!! Hahahaha laughed till stomach ache.Went back to CCSS after everyone finish bying their lunch...Immediately change into full -u..Pass the letters that i wrote for them to them.. Coelho mam briinging us there..Yup...Liyana and Farhana seem happy when i passed them the letters..Yeah very paisei to pass to Mr,Firdaus to ask Shiek pass,, paisei la never write for you..

Began usual training..Its our big day..First was rather careless went to the wrong room..Jw came and brought me to the correct one..Went to change back to half u..Finally saw loyang sec here... Yeah we were sitting side by side.Went with Shimin to change and took their school flag fer them..Went for the training..At first it was Zaidee and me was reserve and main..But instead its only me..During the preview dry run..i cried silently so he wont hear..Cos i dont wan him to feel guilty..He didn't talk to me..I got no guts to talk to him too..First time and for the longest period of time we did not talk to eachother and i was feeling pretty lonely..yeah so he broke the silence by asking why am i so quiet..Yea i felt that he was so far away from me..

Went for lunch and it was finally the actual...I went away for actual and was bloody tired. Actually i tried asking Rahimi sir if he could join us but he declined..Changed to full u..Really not used without zaidee with me..Yeah..Alot of goh fainted..Felt sorry for firdaus that he faint..

Yeah after the whole parade was really tired..Guess what? i left my full u in the room..Dashed back and get my full u..Really upset that must leave zaidee and shimin..I wonder when could i ever see them again..I could never forget them..Maneck vernon and Shiyong joined us on the bus cos jerk not here..Shuang..Upset..Small small came and support me but dun get to see my small small..Sorry orh small small..Nearly kena accident in the bus that we board back go school.. Uncle anyhow drive then we late go back ccss..We took some memorable photos at the bus stop..Posted on facebook..Went home and rest after arrival at ccss.. Super tired though dun get to replace cos FB2 got no casualties:) proud!! NPAP'o9 FB2 Rules<3

Labels: NPAP Actual

Sunday, April 19, 2009

♥ Thursday, April 16, 2009

Today first period had english..nothing much also..Except got really emotional when one of my classmates said that Scs are not suppose to sleep in class!! Eh scs are humen beings leh..we are not perfect humen beings..Next have higher mother tongue test..i certainly hope i can pass or its really a disgrace..Yeah had recess..After recess..it was e-geog..During e geog we were suppose to be doing geog mock test.But i wanna do zuoye so that it won't be that taxing for me..But yet when i opened my zuoye i found that it was decorated with a pig..I really felt heart ache till the extreme end..I broke down..

I realised i'm really under alot of pressure..test, exams, duties, parades..They are really heavy for me..I'm just barely surviving...I've been putting in my best for everything..Monday got scolded by teacher, tuesday got confronted by squadmates and scolded by lavania..Wednesday got told off by classmates for sleeping in class and classmates drew on my books and table.. And those crap jerks!! I seriously cannot take it..I broke down..I ran out of class after geog and sat at the staircase and i met miss wee there..

I could not take it..I broke down in front miss wee..I told her everything at the jerk did and somehow miss wee told me that i was somehow serious about studies..probably i'll be the one having the last laugh..Yeah felt slightly better..Saw a thai teacher and brought her down to 3R6 as she requested and went over to Sumardi back in class..Zhou Hao apologised to me for drawing the book.. Thanks for ur sincerity zhou hao..its the first time hearing you apologising to me.. Really appreciated..

Next went down for lunch..Dun really have desire to eat luh..So just gotten a fries and a milo.. Finished up the milo and dumped the fries into my bag..Went off for npdp..Reach Changkat and realise that east spring was release much much ealier.. Noe from mr firdaus that syazwan went out of class at 11.30 HAHA i laughed upside down..

Time really flies..I and junwen went for flag bearer stuff as usual..Quite worried cos Zaidee and Shimin is not in sight..I wanted to tell junwen i dun wanna go down without them...I realise i will really miss them very very very badly..Why must we be separated after 3 months of being v close together??I cherished this second last training and really stick to Zaidee and shimin.. I laughed with zaidee when shimin was marching..Syazwan march like a model!! HAHA His butt jus keep shaking=XWhen i pointed out to zaidee he was laughing too=) Today GOH its really disgraceful cos their flags keep flying and they just dun keep in dressing..zzzz And that gave zaidee and me more topics..=D<3

Thanks for being there for me when i nearly broke down Sweetie...Thanks Zaidee and Shimin for accompanying me all the whiles time in NPAP..U guys are people whom i hold really close to me..
Thanks for listening to my nonsense and accompanying all these whiles zaidee and thanks sweetie for going through all the thin and thick together with me<3 love all of you..And East Spring Changkat NPAP participant'09<3=D

Labels: NPDP 2nd last training=(

Thursday, April 16, 2009

♥ Wednesday, April 15, 2009

First period was chem..Then it was english..Asked lavania for excuse slip but she said schedule change and okay...Next was e-math..TIme really flies..Its recess and miss lavania asked me to see her during recess to sign kind of stuff..She was late for 15 minutes? Then i asked her for excuse slip she ranted at me stop bugging her for it..I remembered for the flag she asked me to bug her till she does it..But yet she never give me the schedule that was updated....

Okay drop it.. I'm gonna go bonkers! In the morning, Jianli came and confront me..He said justin was very angry cos i critised him on weiqi's blog..So these two blows came together and i was super emotional over it.But i dont know whats the problem with both of them...

During the rest of the lessons i wasn't really paying much attention...After school, was suppose to have D&T.. I thought i was gonna sit alone during lunch again..But it was rather surprising that jillian waved for me and i went over to sit with her, Hong Wei and alvin=D yeah they are really sweet people..Darling ur phone very very handsome!! Thanks for saying that my baby is chio=D

Next came up D&t..Yes same as the previous week, had lessons over at Com lab..Yes it was rather boring luh i would say..But i seriously think paying attention indeed makes things easier..Cos i payed attention this time..But i need to help kailing pass up her compo also.. Haiz..

Nice nice irfan said wanna go home with me=D i'm happy, though nid to wait a while for him which its about half an hour but its rather worth it:) really..We took 12 and went over bubble tea shop again=D after that home sweet home~!

Labels: Two in a row quarrel

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

♥ Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Okay today was the voting of the sc president..Took 3R7..37 give out only got back 35 lol? Saw alot of votes for keith and pao..All the way pao i voted for you..Early morning cos i said that taking 1c1 and 1I1 is suay, got scolded by jamie tan..okay fine it was jus a slip of words! Scs are still human beings right?Had PE but realised that i never bring pe attire..In the end revised for my e-maths test which i flunked..It was my first day bringing my KU990R baby to school..Still trying to get used to her functions=D Okay i'm super tired..cos theres e-maths remedial today.. It was rather boring..But i realised mc is here=D i'm happy:D Signing off liao~

Labels: upleasent morning..

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

♥ Saturday, April 11, 2009

Happy birthday to you ian!

Today was pretty much a boring day..Was chionging maths all day except actually i on the comp when dad when to fetch mummy..cos i really cannot take it without my comp..Doing matrices..At least manage to do some..Slept till 12pm what..Had curry instant noodle for breakfast....Polish my boots twice and it was really shiny till i can see my own outline in there!! Its really an achievement!! Really it was the first time i polish till this pattern....But i'm sad cos there are scratches already!! Luckily managed to cover them with kiwi=XWhen dad brought mum home, mum went to do her hair by ah ma and we went out to Kallang Leisure Droom again.Sweetie going to pastamania with his fren cos his fren treating him..We went to KFC to take away a snacker and a large pop cos sis and i were both hungry..Then we went over to youguru to have 2 youghurt..why must dad always show a serious and stern face to me while always smiling and joking with sis..Sis use my acc dad did not scold her but when i used hers he reprimanded me..Nevermind..i shall swallow..Watched late night horror movie lol.Was talking to aaron who has the same experience with ex as me..Cheer up Aaron...You will find another girl better than her=(Thanks once again sayang for accompanying me till 2am in the morning..seriously you melted me..Okay now its actually 2.23 in the morning..i'm tired=X~

*Today its the first time that i called you sayang and you called me love=X*

Labels: Boring good friday...

Saturday, April 11, 2009

♥ Thursday, April 9, 2009

Sports day its today and i seriously have alot of nonsense to say=D During SS miss low was there. Her lesson was much more interesting than lavania=D Had group work and stuff...Lesson kicked off with a video.Next was POA..Slept through e whole lesson so cannot remember a crap what happened.Next period was english.During english mom was absent and so that idiotic madam noor came in..Super irritating lar she...Made us do the DOC...Was smart to lend jonathan my book so therefore i dunnid to do..Just tell madam noor that i pass my book to jonathan and cannot do.. yup she still dismissed that whole class but she dunno that i never finish luh =P

Went off fer recess together with my bag..yup had the same muslim rice...guess what? A bird came and pecked my food!!! Gosh i became a laughing stock=.=Ok forget it...We have to move on.. After that reprimanded weiqi and esmond for not tucking in shirt cos i saw them in mufti... Disgraceful man..Pls esmond dun take ur brother and pressure me....i know hes from juliet but so?I'm asking u to tuck in ur shirt eh...Ok from the then my mood begain to turn for the worse but edenious cheered me up at the foyer=D thanks edenious=D

Next i got changed and boarded the bus.Edenious sat behind me and was playing with my phone hahas=D Alot of Student councillors were not around...During the bus journey, it was really upsetting for miss tan i know...Cos she was reprimanding everyone on the bus...But i can silently tell myself that i'm not any of those that she mentioned...i've always tried to be a responsible sc, responsible senior....seriously i can tell myself that...Sort of happy that sec 2s are here..cos dun wan them to see how seniors are reprimanded...

Okay after the long reflecting session, we finally reached bedok..Its a really warm weather... Actually i wanted 2c1...but some immature kids snatched with me for 2c1..Okay forget it...Neatly cried over it...But I accepted it and took 2I1..Thanks for being there for me sweetie..or i'll have no courage and peseverence to take..Ridwan is really cute cos without twine, guess what? We improviced it with vine!! Haha Jacinta thought of it too hahas..Okay...Waited for classes to come in..

Did cheers and all...We lost the cheer competion..But doesn't matter..Scs we really tried our best.. Even students dun cheer, we did our best to make the atmosphere lively and stuff.. yup so i can at least tell myself that i've done my best..Yup...Shouted at weiqi and jianli many times for them to tuck in their shirts...I was so fed up that pulled out weiqi's shirt twice..Sry fer that weiqi..But seriously i adviced you guys so many times you know...imagine if u were in my shoes..
Jianli..i know tucking in very warm...i also tuck in when i'm mufti...i believe u sure can check ur attire if syafiq can right? Esmond..ur brother in juliet so what..I'm not wrong asking u tuck in shirt kay? Dare u ask u bro cme back tekan me..

Okay the B boys were amazing..Especially Justindrian, Darren Sim and some others..Ian i never see you run eh...Irfan nevermind if u miss ur event lar...Doesn't matter...Ashaf..You are really amazing..really..you defeated so many other schools leading the race..=X I was really cheering okay for everyone..Mr Lim said our cheer was really loud that they could hear from the other end.. We used left pole right pole and that was deafening..Scs we lied down on e grass and formed NAS hahas..

My Junior nearly gotten into trouble with some guys in 2I1..Sry Zhizhong i scolded you instead of jianliang..forgive me..Jianliang..mature up and be more forgiving..People stare at you ignore.. Jianli pls stop getting urself into trouble with them..It will be never ending kay... Okay after that, went home with Irfan and shaun..Met weiqi and bubble tea shop and i apologised to him for upshirting him..He accepted lah..

Through this sports day, i truly learnt alot of things....Handling juniors must have patience.. and try to be part of them..Dun be stingy with ur compliments..Praise them more and they might listen to you..Of course still must noe the problem before pointing fingers..I've learnt my mistake..

*thanks for the drink that you sold me junior=D*

Labels: Sports Day 2009

Thursday, April 09, 2009

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Today firstly..i had 2.4km trial run..I walked so hard till my right lung somehow just keep hurting that i must stop...Jialats its super painful..After PE went up for mother tongue together with kailing ...Because i waited for her, i was late for half an hour>.< Lesson has already started half way through already..Sorry Madam Zhou..Suppose to collect Zuoye tmr..Nice marcus volunteered to remind me but i irritated him..Sorry marcus... Had E-math after recess..Before recess i went to miss Zubaidah and do chapter 4 revision with her.Went up to class together with her.Was doing Chapter 7..Cos after Pe i went to look for ms Sayuri to ask her postpone the test...Thanks miss Sayuri<333 I was paying absolute attention during e-math and i caught everything.=DLastly was D&T.Went there only for half an hour and went off for NPAP together with Susu

Met Chor Chor, ah gong and 3 others at canteen..i was really careless this training..Cos firstly..I by accident steppped on ah chor's shoes which got her rather pissed..i'm so sorry...Was rather late..Reach HTA only at 3.3opm..CCSS was ic..Farhana never come...So lianna have to take over as main flag bearer.

Ah gong supporting Con, so he went to store take shoe first cos his shoe spoil. Sotong and me sat at the casualty bench together with Tampinese Sec cos our boots spoil.. Mam say 4pm then can go change..i dunn why wan fa is there also, i see him sleep on hte bench.At 4pm, i and sotong never had our break, cos we followed the Pingyi sec guy over to the store and changed my shoes and belt=D Those new ones were lighter and more confortable=D My shoe size was 5? Which was 2 sizes smaller?=X Sotong changed into half u inside air - con i change outside which was like sauna. Went back and fall in. Helped sotong tape the flag and ran to Zaidee at the reserve bench.

Okay so Zaidee and me together with weishan were at the audience seat sitting down as reserves. We were gossiping about the Guard-Of-Honor unit together with 3 other flag bearers from other schools which consist of a sec 2..Their drills are like crap..the flag bearers can hold flag till flag flew onto their faces..Disgraceful man..GOH rifle girls..omg timing!! Goh Flag bearers and girls seriously nid to Check dressing!!!

Zaidee was laughing upside down cos the flag actually covered e person's entire face. We were busy spotting whose flags were flying HAHA!!!Sotong actually dropped our flag-.- and first time on history it landed on the ground.. My fault for not sticking the flag properly...though he sticked also-.-glad that able to talk to zaidee this training!! Miss u leh=X Ok Had a kluwang Baris and left e place.Our unit and zaidee's unit were competing to shout the timing see who shout louder=X In the end i shouted so their contigent never continued and followed my timing=D My throat dry le lar..Run wrong bus..paisei lar Firdaus=X

After i reached home, i went to polished my shoes till 1 plus, then i go have my bath. Still having cold wars with papa..Idiotic papa..

Labels: NPAP Training 08/04/09

Thursday, April 09, 2009

♥ Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Hellos peep:D Its a rather rushing day. Early morning nothing much..Manage to ask miss wee about POA..Thats an achievement, cos up till the poa lesson i knew crap about trading account... Next came up E-math..About half an hr later, ShengHan came to my class and called me out for lower sec assembly that was brought forward by half an hr..Okay Miss Tia make things difficult for me..i'll remember you man miss Tia..In fact i told Rid that i would be late cos i'll go have lunch, but i was there punctually..

The lower sec were more or less MUCH better than upper sec...When its upper sec, teachers completely dun give a damn or wun bother even help the scs when were were trying so hard.. Nearly lost my voice yesterday liao lar..Yet today i nid to scream at the lower sec..

But still have to do my job cos i'm a councillor. Unfortunately i was beside a normal acad class.. which the chairman hates me...They gave me a difficult time..Luckily madam yanti helped me out..Thank you dearest teachers...During lower sec, teachers bother to help us slightly for a little. Shout and scream and what ever..Even worse i went on stage to say cheers and made the annoucements.

Next i went to class and take my bag to rush for D&T over at the computer lab.Mr Hazmi cute arh ask e class clap to welcome me. Haha i became a VIP.Lesson was really boring..Cher was going so fast till i dunno where was she...In e end she reprimanded me for being slow when i missed like half a lesson?

After the boring lessons, nid to immediately find november and fall in. Training was going on fine. I was super upset with some ncos today...in fact not only me, its my whole squad..Nco had an arguement with another nco but yet vent anger on my squad..NCO..Seriously i'm damn pissed with you! Doesn't mean that i'm in NPDP that means my drills are perfect!! Somore i did not touch the baton for 3 months!Its like wth? NCO pumped us 30 in FULL-U? But its rather wierd..I dun hate Nco but yet i dun like her way of dealing with things..i revised baton drills.. Next Friday its the last official training and i cannot attend due to NPAP...Tomorrow got NPAP training..Will definately be shouting like crap again..Again junwen will march and i'll be emoing alone, Zaidee if u're seeing this i hope tmr u're there for NPAP i miss gossiping abt GOH together with you...I'm really exhusted mentally and physically today...

When blogging, father scolded me really harshly till i cannot take it..I'm already really exhusted already but yet he cannot understand!I decided to ignore him until at least thurs if his attitude is better...Okay end off liaoz..Thurs got sports day tmr NPAP...

Labels: Rush Hour

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

♥ Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Happy Bithday Joy~

Hello dearest readers, today its rather a day full of mood swings i'll say...From morning, Bukhari came to me and asked me join back the group..I declined.Reason being..I wanna be a swallow with unclipped wings soaring in the broad sky with tiny white clouds! I wan freedom.I dont wan to be with friends that treat me like dirt. I'm happy with the way i am because i have friends and sweetie of course Ah kors and jiejie with me all the time!

They cherish me like treasure, precious gem, protect me like i'm a blood related person.Be my listening ears when i'm upset or crying, share my joy, stand up for me when i'm bullied.I'm more than contented to have them here with me! They are within my reach and always reach for me.Thanks Sweetie and all cherished people.That included kors and jiejie!!!Yesterday was the first time sweetie called me dear and i'm so overjoyed!=D Sweetie i'm addicted to u staying by my side=D

First period was physics it was rather alright, i was paying attention luh:D Went through notes and nothing special.Next came higher mother tongue..Nothing much also...But this kept rewinding in my mind..I hope that Mike Ncos dun POP cos i'm seriously not ready to take over the unit...Seriously lack of confidence to really do it..

Next was english...I seriously respect miss lavania.Shes not like any ordinary teachers.I brought my health booklet so i was not barberqued...If i were to be the one standing, i would go in front of her and tell her that i'll go home and fetch her the health booklet and sincerely apologise to her at the eye.I dont wanna make her go through the pain of saying sorry to others because of my class! i wanna hand in my homework and forms everything on time! Thanks for giving me such a teacher that i truly respect! I love miss lavania to bits:D Tmr we are going library. To think that miss lavania continue teaching despite the fact that the class actually did not apologise to her sincerely. I truly respect her.

Next was e-math..Started chapter 7.Lit was free period and went to library and started to see pple play comp and drool haha...Majority of them are playing facebook as usual.Went hall directly to hall at 1.30 to meet up with other scs to do a dry run of cheers.I swear the NA people are so irritating...Ask the upper sec to cooporate its really difficult...I shouted till i nearly lost my voice...So tired..Went directly home.

Boarded 31 at tamp int and i overslept..That was how tired i was...Was suppose to get down at CHIJ concent but in the end gotten down at Katong? In the end i went to get a packet of chips and eat while i walked to the nearest bus stop.Got down at market and got a strawberry milktea. Nid go do homework liaoz Bye~

Labels: Emotional Day

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

♥ Monday, April 6, 2009

Today was quite a boring day but i went over to the hospital to visit one of my friend over at the hospital.It was KK hospital.I went over to parkway first to look for Vivien Jie.But shes not done yet so i went over to timezone to play for a while. I loved playing dress up and dance, but seeing young gals like 6 plus i din dare to play cos yea i scared abit embarassing say i lack childhood..Plus it was really crowded therefore i could only watch and no hands on..T_T After i met vivien and we both went over to market to get some pears for Kathleen as she cant eat too sweet....Vivien and me picked the pear slowly and inspected pear by pear like those aunties hahas.

We took 48 down to KK and went to ward 55.When we visited her, we chat from 6 all the way till 9 till her father came.She wanted to have a sweet but without the permission of the nurse she cannot..She has no appitite to have anything and i'm worried..Haven had anything from 4pm till 9pm plus but its okay..Its worth it if i can visit her.I seriously hope that she could get better>.< I had mr bean setE with a cheesy pancake and a milky soya milk=D Seriously i felt so much better. On the bus, there are some people from little india..cos i was wearing a spegetti dress and they were keep staring at somewhere they should not..Lucky i wore i thight underneath or i'll be really pathetic and freeze there.

In the midst of the conversation i realised how important is a healthy body.Even eating a sweet also permission is needed is miserable.I should really be thankful to what i have now. Including like Sweetie, caring friends, being a councillor, being in 3R7..And alot more..I never went through what my seniors went through, never went into hospital, never experience what a nurse have to go through...Though i nevr went through what you both have went through, but hereby i promise the both of you that whenever you need someone to talk to, i'll be right here waiting for you to come to me.Cherished friends, you know who you are, sweetie come to me when you need me, cos i'm always here waiting for you to come to me.Byes~

*today was the first time that sweetie called me dear=D

Labels: Hospital Visit

Monday, April 06, 2009