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♥ Thursday, May 28, 2009

Today is probably post exam activity..Another boring day lah..Nothing much i remembered was suppose to be on today..Ms tan went on e stage and called all altc participants and reminded us there was suppose to be a briefing..Sianz cannot go home with small small again..It was suppose to be at Auditorium...Its a shame that i cannot go home with small..But tomorrow its his birthday and i am suppose to get justin's gift, my own as well as nid to go with yong xiang to get his gift.Had my altc briefing all the way until around 4.30..This time it feels so empty alone going for briefing..He also never call me after he left..Was bloody worried like mad..Met yong xiang over at bangawan solo after briefing..Thinking to use part of my savings to buy a cake for my small..but dunno if i have the ability to do so.. Sigh..Cash strapped..First i went over to tamp mall check out the watches waist pouches and shoe bags..After that ran over to white sands check out the billa wallets and finally went back t1 again to compare price before i bought everything.Yeah bought wrapping paper over at white sands..After everything i went to army shop to see if theres hannas for his shoe bag but it was rather a wasted trip lah.Yeah next rush over to parkway buy the final ear piece..Okay end of story.. went home kena scold like dog=.= Nvm still staying up to wrap all the presents and make the card~

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Thursday, May 28, 2009


♥ Tuesday, May 26, 2009

It was rather a mixed feeling day today..The day started bad as had a sleepless night knowing someone plans to take my beloved small from me..Hes my pillar and centres my life..How could.. Just because of attention again! Its cuz of me not givin sufficient attention to you does it mean that u nid to destroy my life by taking away small from me which u fairly know how important he is to me right?Thinking of losing small and stuff caused my sleep to fly off..

Today was normal went library during free period la yeah..Facebooked as usual except with company of jonannas they all yeah..rushed back to class to get my bag then went to small and asked him if hes waiting fer me.. yup..Sprinted up to the mph after that..Was released slightly early yeah get to accompany small a little more..Mr Heng say wanna put me in the core team of green team..Which i'm somehow yeah..The pressure is on me now cuz i'm Xinyi's sucessor..Some primary kids of basketball came to our sch..Watched them a while and went home with small..He strucked me a fatal blow by saying he is shifting..He actually dunno but i silently shed tears when i'm having my half an hour of peace..

It all seems so fated that someone is snatching small with me and yet heaven wants him shifted away from me and seems he will drift even more apart from me..NOOOO!!T_T i really dun wan!! Hes just as dear to me..But we cannot do anything eh..So i came to terms with it..

We both reported home respectively and i went back to ngee ann primary together with small.. He seems happier whenever hes with his juniors and other friends rather than being tgether with him..In my eyes i dun mind being the third party when he and his fren goes out..But i'm somehow just wondering..Does he really need me there or jus..For a display..But i know his presence brings peace and joy n colours injected into my life and makes it vibrant..Hes simply irreplaceable by anyone..Accidentally took home his phone so rushed back and passed him..so sorry small..

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Tuesday, May 26, 2009


♥ Sunday, May 24, 2009

Time really files..It has been a week that mummy has gone aussy liaoz..Really missed her badly.. Not used to coming home with a stomach of troubles but yet mum is not around to hear my troubles.. Mum usually is the one most supportive of me no matter what i do..Even i get into relationships which are rather wastage of my time, mum never scolds me for mistakes except for those to the extreme..Today shes coming back and i'm so gonna pick her kays!=D

Okay today is still sick due to flu..Oh yea friday i had a rather terrible flu at home..Thing was worsen by having gastic and headache attacking my body at the same time..So yup..Friday it was horrible that i can neither sleep or even eat..Seriously no appetite cos of headache cuz just lay on e floor and rested for the whole day after i sent small small home..At least sent him home first before reaching home yeah it became a daily routine lah hahaha..I'm glad at least recovered by 60% become mummy comes back or she will prolly nag at me=X

So today itself i woke up At 9 checking my messages and yong xiang messaged me the event was cancelled cuz he missed the registration-.- Anyways told daddy that going out..So might as well dun waste the chance lar..Decided to proceed with my plans to go out even though still somehow feel headache..Went to take a bath..Small small intended to go check out t mall together with me but somehow screwed cos i cannot seem to find him..So? poped over to tampinese mall alone to check out his birthday gift=) Yeah nid pop over T1 to get his gift wrapper..=)To think just to check his present itself it took me around 4 hours? Yet i haven get his gift..GOSH i wasted my time..But got a rough idea wad to get for him for birthday liao counted as acheivement lah=)

Okay poped over to changi in MRT resting on the train while replying small small's messages=) Yeah his messages kept me company in the train=)Yup arrived at changi t2 before sister house keeper and papa old manny=)Yup rung meimei up told her i reached t2 earlier than her=) notify old man that i'll be having an Ya Kun Roti there have a set b..I was bloody clumsy lar..The cap of the soya sauce never screw tight then in the end spill some=X The patient lady even apologised to me la hahas..

After half an hour of waiting, Mummy finally appeared at the belt!!<3 mummy^^She came back with laguage worth of60kg i think? Quickly escorted mummy home scared she run away luh=X haha cant bear mummy zao liao=X So went home and mummy said majority of the stuff was for mei and me=X Wa really got alot eh..Got tights mirror, comb and t shirt...But the most glad is mummy got some goodies that i can share with small small^^<3 Bleh..Its getting late..Shall rest le=) Good nights

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Sunday, May 24, 2009


♥ Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Hellos peep..I realised the last time i ever blogged was 1 month ago..Okay sorry i'm really tensed up and more of rather..mentally and physically exhausted..I discovered alot of things during this one month..Guess what..I've now someone to accompany me to and forth of sch..

Thats my small small..Hmm..now can say that my life functions around his..As in i adjust my life to suit his which actually makes me feel happy noe?Hes just like a younger brother to me that i can really depend on..I never felt such a way that i can acutally depend on someone..He once asked me if hes a cheap skate guy cos i treat him most of the time..But guess what..I said no..Cos i remember once i said..Its not the money that i bombed matters but its the thought that truly matters to me.. On him i can find rather many things that i cannot seem to find on my batch of people except some from external sch people truly loves me..

People surrounding an individual its rather complicated..Its sickening having people whose trying to like act as betrayers and stuff yes..But i know small he wont..At least hes standbying me whenever i just simply cannot take stuff anymore..Guess what..I finished my last paper today..Went with small small to play pool over at katong together with yong xiang..I waited for small to finish bowling and i went over with him to play audition a while over at the lan and finally we homed..

These days i had mid year exam and i was really tensed up..Guess what? Small small and Taufiq were the two strong pillars i had to lean on for a while just for support..Its just that little of motivation that i need just to carry on but yet my sec 3 batch cannot give me..I need to depend on others to make me feel secure..Gosh..Okay all i need is just a friend thats loyal and faithful and too show me the sincerity and respect for this friendship is it just so difficult? But why is it to Taufiq and small small its not?

Okay stopping here~

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Tuesday, May 19, 2009